Today has been a rough day. I’m getting pretty uncomfortable pregnancy-wise, and Colette is still reeling from being boppy-less trying to figure out how to calm herself. She is her Daddy’s daughter with endless energy. Her mind and body are go-go-go. She’s a typical 2year old going through the psychosocial stages of autonomy vs shame/doubt and initiative vs guilt, ie she is testing limits and asserting control. This wears on any person spending 24/7 with a toddler, but adding being pregnant to the mix makes helping her successfully accomplish these stages quite stressful.
A few months ago, I was on top of guiding her through these “crises.” I stocked up on books about virtues–gentleness, self-control,patience–and we were using the vocabulary to help her make good choices. I thought, “I really want to instill the fruits of the Spirit in her.” As I apologized to Colette tonight about not being patient with her today, it struck me. I need to study up on those fruits just as much as I need to be teaching them to her. Not because I don’t model them fairly regularly, but if we learn together and recognize our successes and failures together, she will understand it more fully.
It’s difficult not to let your fruit spoil, whether in the office place or in relationships or staying at home with kids. So here’s to keeping my fruit from spoiling moment by moment with my little microorganisms growing so rapidly!
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. Against such things there is no law.” Galatians 5:22-23